I can't bring my self to conclusion. I can't understand why I still cry over you why I hurt everynight because I try to think of ways, of things I did wrong to try and push it all on my self as if it were my fault your not with me right now. Everytime I feel I'm happy with kyle or just happy in general something or someone finds a way to bring me down it shouldnt be like this. it shouldnt be that way. I changed my whole way for you, I tryed to make my self someone who I wasnt JUST SO YOU WOULD LIKE ME. I don't understand why either.....I'm so tierd of going to school and hearing them call me names, like ugly and shit. I can't take it I CANT HANDLE IT. Kyle dosen't make me want to be someone diffrent. I can be my self and he wont judge me. I hate going to the mall. All they do there is drugs and drink and there all mean. Infact, theres no where else to go I WANT TO RIP MY HAIR OUT. I HATE FEELING THIS WAY I hate feeling for you, I don't want to feel this way anymore, its also like EVERYWHERE I GO, i see your face or pictures that remind me of you. It's like your HAUNTING ME. Please .. STOP go away.........

okay, I think I'm at my point of insanity, I greeve everynight over this shit
it wont stop it wont go away. I don't know how to make it stop I try to think of all the negative and mean things you've done and said to me to make me feel like shit. But its like everything mean you said or done to me its made me want to try and make you like me more. I TRYED SO HARD, to be someone I'm not. AND THATS NOT WHAT KIND OF PERSON I AM = (. This is why I'm so hurt and confused, I never change for anyone. & because of you I lost a good friend who was so good to me and you made me stab her in the back, because I didn't see this happening. I saw an US together, but I do see you're true side now, and I do see why she broke up with you.

I HATE YOU. i HATE me for wanting you

I'm so happy when I'm with my Boyfriend, and I'm so tierd of people judging me and trying to tell me what to do, all I do is greive on the past, I don't know how to let things go it eats me up inside, EVERYTHIGN bad sticks with me forever......
=[ and I know what you all are going to say " you need to learn to let go blah blah, I already know the deal and I know what I have to do but I can't these memories wont fade, and everytime I make new ones........they end up worse"

tomorrow will be a better day.
take heart.

» laziewong on 2006-10-14 12:47:16

I see what laziwong is saying, but...
I know your pain. I'm right there with ya. I'm sorry. I know JUST what you're saying.
» elessar257 on 2006-10-14 02:22:10

P.S.
If ever you need someone to talk to. A lending ear is near by.
» elessar257 on 2006-10-14 03:06:18

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